What I Don't Want (important edit )

I've been having a bad time of it lately in regards to emotions. A lot of stuff is falling apart at the seams, or feels like it is, especially in relation to friends on here and family in reality, and I want out. But not like this, never like this.

Edit: This picture is titled "what I don't want" for a reason: it depicts an action I never want to perform. I may think about ending my life, but I'll never do it. I made a vow to someone special that I wouldn't.